Today I made a couple of Big decisions and I am just beginning to feel the relief. I have addressed a few problems that I had been putting off. Seems to be one of my symptoms to put stuff off, especially stuff I really don’t know how to handle, or a situation I have never been in!
I have never been good with my finances. I tend to not keep close enough eye on my money and times are tough right now so I have fallen behind on most of my credit bills. We run out of money 2 weeks after I get paid and I get paid once a month. I just pray we don’t run out of something we can’t live without but this past month I had to borrow money from Carl to get through. That is super embarrassing for me. I am at a point in my life that I have never been at before, I have never been in a position that I couldn’t pay my bills on time and with the increase in costof living I am at that point now. If I was better with finances it wouldn’t be as bad but I am not. Either way I’m hundreds of dollars short a month. Im not saying this for sympathy please don’t think that, I want people to know everyone goes through this and we will survive it.
So what am I going to do about this? Well I applied to review the extreme couponing video class for a reason. I want to learn what I can to save money and they really outlined how to get organized and how to save as much as possible. So I am, this week, going to get organized properly and hope I can buy some groceries. Now, I am in California so I don’t expect to save what some of these people do but I should be able to save a good amount!
I realize that there are things I do that are honestly a symptom of my Illness but I have to take control. Can’t allow the stress of unimportant things to take over and I lose my focus on what I must learn and must control. I am regrouping!!
So tomorrow I will spend the day studying for my exam to get my Insurance license and then I go take the exam Thursday morning. I really need to pass it on my first attempt but I am sure I will. I did it before so I gotta be able to do it again, 15 years later!
Pray for me that my anxiety doesn’t take over!